A special friend told me recently that I am very good at talking about my family and the things they do, but I am not good at talking about myself.
\nThat got me to thinking, and I realised she was right, so right.
\nFor someone who has always been so articulate, a lover of words I was actually unable to point them inwardly unless they were negative.
\nI have spent all my life being a mother and a wife, being a home educator, an administrator, a farmer, a friend, that somewhere in amongst all of it I couldn\u2019t see me.
\nI have constantly under estimated myself, I have lacked\u00a0self confidence, I have had negative body image, I push myself until I break, I give and give and give some more because I never knew how to say no.\u00a0I vacillate between being being the victim of abuse and being a passionate and strident voice\u00a0supporting other victims because I haven\u2019t been strong enough to use my voice for me.<\/p>\n
But now I am finding my own voice.
\nI am now beginning to see Me.
\nThis new blog is Me stepping out, starting afresh, learning to be happy in the skin I\u2019m in.<\/p>\n
I asked another very dear and astute friend to tell me what she saw in me.
\nI can now own her words!
\nI am\u00a0so amazing. I\u00a0always make a positive out of every opportunity. I have\u00a0personality, aptitude, excellent communication skills, interpersonal skills, and above all a great sense of being and understanding of people. Not to mention kindheartedness and desire to learn more, I\u00a0am an amazing individual.<\/p>\n
Helen Reddy sums me up perfectly<\/a> \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n I am woman, hear me roar<\/em> You can bend but never break me<\/em> I am woman watch me grow<\/em> Oh yes, I am wise<\/em> I am a survivor. \n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" A special friend told me recently that I am very good at talking about my family and the things they do, but I am not good at talking about myself. That got me to thinking, and I realised she was right, so right. For someone who has always been so articulate, a lover of words … Continue reading “Who am I?”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":777,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/58"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=58"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/58\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":63,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/58\/revisions\/63"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/777"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=58"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nIn numbers too big to ignore<\/em>
\nAnd I know too much to go back an’ pretend<\/em>
\n‘Cause I’ve heard it all before<\/em>
\nAnd I’ve been down there on the floor<\/em>
\nNo one’s ever gonna keep me down again<\/em><\/p>\n
\n‘Cause it only serves to make me<\/em>
\nMore determined to achieve my final goal<\/em>
\nAnd I come back even stronger<\/em>
\nNot a novice any longer<\/em>
\n‘Cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul<\/em><\/p>\n
\nSee me standing toe to toe<\/em>
\nAs I spread my lovin’ arms across the land<\/em>
\nBut I’m still an embryo<\/em>
\nWith a long, long way to go<\/em>
\nUntil I make my brother understand<\/em><\/p>\n
\nBut it’s wisdom born of pain<\/em>
\nYes, I’ve paid the price<\/em>
\nBut look how much I gained<\/em>
\nIf I have to, I can do anything<\/em>
\nI am strong<\/em>
\nI am invincible<\/em>
\nI am woman<\/em><\/p>\n
\nMy self and my psyche were\u00a0so damaged by the one person who was meant to love and protect me during my young and formative years that consequently I have walked an incredibly rough and rocky road through life.
\nBut I am now saying enough!
\nI am claiming myself back.
\nWelcome to my new world.<\/p>\n