{"id":1100,"date":"2021-01-27T05:25:20","date_gmt":"2021-01-26T16:25:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=1100"},"modified":"2021-01-27T05:28:10","modified_gmt":"2021-01-26T16:28:10","slug":"again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=1100","title":{"rendered":"Again&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>When my words stop flowing<br>They begin piling up within<br><br>Silencing begins slowly<br>One small trigger<br>That stops a word<br>That stops a sentence<br>And before I know it<br>My words have become dammed<br> <br>Before I realise<br>The metaphoric hand is across my mouth <br>Again&#8230;<br>My words are held captive<br>Racing round and round<br>Within my brain<br>Out of control<br>Unable to find escape<br>Tormenting<br>Damning<br>Shaming<br>Me<br>Again&#8230;<br><br><br>When my words stop flowing<br>They begin piling up within<br>Like unread books<br>Stacked randomly<br>Teetering<br>With constrained<br>Vulnerability<br>On an unstable shelf<br><br>Until<br>The shelf fails<br>The books fall<br>Pages scatter<br>The metaphoric is torn away<br>Allowing my words escape <br>Liberated <br>Flooding forth <br>Demanding coherance<br>Gaining volume<br>Reclaiming power<br>And my healing process<br>Continues<br>Again&#8230;<br><br>Until my words stop flowing<br>Again&#8230;.<br><br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"524\" height=\"391\" src=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/PTSD-Brain.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1101\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/PTSD-Brain.jpg 524w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/PTSD-Brain-300x224.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 524px) 85vw, 524px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When my words stop flowingThey begin piling up within Silencing begins slowlyOne small triggerThat stops a wordThat stops a sentenceAnd before I know itMy words have become dammed Before I realiseThe metaphoric hand is across my mouth Again&#8230;My words are held captiveRacing round and roundWithin my brainOut of controlUnable to find escapeTormentingDamningShamingMeAgain&#8230; When my words &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=1100\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Again&#8230;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[79,19,69,47,67,49,80,68,70,1,18],"tags":[85,78,77,74,81,71,84,86,82,83],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1100"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1100"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1100\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1103,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1100\/revisions\/1103"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1100"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1100"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1100"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}