{"id":1284,"date":"2022-05-17T11:45:39","date_gmt":"2022-05-16T23:45:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=1284"},"modified":"2022-05-17T11:45:39","modified_gmt":"2022-05-16T23:45:39","slug":"depressive-confusion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=1284","title":{"rendered":"Depressive confusion"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I try to process<br>unravel my thoughts<br>but they&#8217;re all mixed up<br>like a cacophony of sound<br>making no sense<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-media-text alignwide has-media-on-the-right is-stacked-on-mobile\"><figure class=\"wp-block-media-text__media\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"540\" height=\"502\" src=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/tumblr_c98f0af7b32f6d99a382815d2ae17f62_76c863b9_540.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1301 size-full\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/tumblr_c98f0af7b32f6d99a382815d2ae17f62_76c863b9_540.jpg 540w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/tumblr_c98f0af7b32f6d99a382815d2ae17f62_76c863b9_540-300x279.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 540px) 85vw, 540px\" \/><\/figure><div class=\"wp-block-media-text__content\">\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Confusion overtakes my brain<br>I forget<br>I muddle<br>I can&#8217;t think<br>I can&#8217;t speak<br>I can&#8217;t face anyone<br>I want to hide<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-media-text alignwide has-media-on-the-right is-stacked-on-mobile\" style=\"grid-template-columns:auto 43%\"><figure class=\"wp-block-media-text__media\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"607\" height=\"595\" src=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Screen-Shot-2018-04-17-at-8.10.09-AM.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1302 size-full\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Screen-Shot-2018-04-17-at-8.10.09-AM.png 607w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Screen-Shot-2018-04-17-at-8.10.09-AM-300x294.png 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><\/figure><div class=\"wp-block-media-text__content\">\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Emotions begin running amok<br>tears pour<br>unable to be repressed<br>fall unbidden<br>at the smallest trigger<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">My body<br>is exhausted<br>it shakes<br>curls up<br>hides<br>needs comfort <br>craves touch<br>yet pushes everyone away<br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-media-text alignwide has-media-on-the-right is-stacked-on-mobile is-vertically-aligned-center\"><figure class=\"wp-block-media-text__media\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"480\" height=\"480\" src=\"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/IMG_7839.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1300 size-full\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/IMG_7839.jpg 480w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/IMG_7839-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/IMG_7839-150x150.jpg 150w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 480px) 85vw, 480px\" \/><\/figure><div class=\"wp-block-media-text__content\">\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">My soul<br>hurts so much<br>needs quiet<br>needs understanding<br>is so tired<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Be patient please<br>I just need time<br><br>ptsd is such an exhausting mindfuck<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I try to processunravel my thoughtsbut they&#8217;re all mixed uplike a cacophony of soundmaking no sense Confusion overtakes my brainI forgetI muddleI can&#8217;t thinkI can&#8217;t speakI can&#8217;t face anyoneI want to hide Emotions begin running amoktears pourunable to be repressedfall unbiddenat the smallest trigger My bodyis exhaustedit shakescurls uphidesneeds comfort craves touchyet pushes everyone away &hellip; 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