{"id":597,"date":"2016-12-05T12:04:48","date_gmt":"2016-12-05T12:04:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=597"},"modified":"2016-12-05T12:04:48","modified_gmt":"2016-12-05T12:04:48","slug":"sparkling-living","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=597","title":{"rendered":"Sparkling living"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This journey of mine has taken me on many detours.<br \/>\nSome have been incredibly hard.<br \/>\nOthers frustrating.<br \/>\nAnd more, emotionally disabling.<br \/>\nThrough it all though I have found a new me.<br \/>\nA stronger me.<br \/>\nSomeone I did not know existed.<br \/>\nMany close to me have recently commented that they are so pleased and glad to see me smiling again.<br \/>\nIt was said that I have my spark back.<br \/>\nThat\u00a0stopped me&#8230;<br \/>\nTo breath&#8230;<br \/>\nAnd think&#8230;<br \/>\nI honestly do not ever remember having a spark.<br \/>\nNot like this.<br \/>\nNever.<br \/>\nMaybe as a very small child I probably had that childish spark of mischief and wonderment.<br \/>\nLike this gorgeous poppet I captured at the beach last week.<br \/>\n<img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-598\" src=\"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/IMG_2056-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"img_2056\" width=\"840\" height=\"630\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/IMG_2056-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/IMG_2056-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/IMG_2056-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/IMG_2056-1200x900.jpg 1200w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 1362px) 62vw, 840px\" \/><br \/>\nBut that spark was cruelly extinguished at a very early age.<br \/>\nYes, I was happy &#8211; to an extent.<br \/>\nBut there was always that underlying \u2018thing\u2019<br \/>\nThe part of my life I wasn\u2019t able to talk about&#8230;<br \/>\nThe secret&#8230;<br \/>\nThe burden I carried&#8230;<br \/>\nthat killed my spark.<\/p>\n<p>I had no idea until recent years just how much those 10 years of stolen\u00a0childhood\u00a0had affected my entire life.<br \/>\nBut now I am walking my healing journey<br \/>\nRunning towards an expectancy of wonderment<br \/>\nReclaiming \u2018me\u2019<br \/>\nI am not going to compromise myself anymore with the pain and the abuse and the heartache.<br \/>\nBecause I Am all I have got and I Am going to live sparkling.<br \/>\n<img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-514\" src=\"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/10\/IMG_1069-277x300.jpg\" alt=\"img_1069\" width=\"277\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/10\/IMG_1069-277x300.jpg 277w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/10\/IMG_1069-768x831.jpg 768w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/10\/IMG_1069-947x1024.jpg 947w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/10\/IMG_1069-1200x1298.jpg 1200w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/10\/IMG_1069.jpg 1893w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 277px) 85vw, 277px\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This journey of mine has taken me on many detours. Some have been incredibly hard. Others frustrating. And more, emotionally disabling. Through it all though I have found a new me. A stronger me. Someone I did not know existed. Many close to me have recently commented that they are so pleased and glad to &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=597\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Sparkling living&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[24,19,47,4,21,6,58,28,17,49,45,18],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/597"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=597"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/597\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":599,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/597\/revisions\/599"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=597"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=597"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=597"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}