{"id":618,"date":"2016-12-10T17:21:56","date_gmt":"2016-12-10T17:21:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=618"},"modified":"2016-12-10T17:24:05","modified_gmt":"2016-12-10T17:24:05","slug":"watch-my-rising","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=618","title":{"rendered":"Watch my rising&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-625\" src=\"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/Watch-me-rise-794x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"794\" height=\"1024\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/Watch-me-rise-794x1024.jpg 794w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/Watch-me-rise-233x300.jpg 233w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/Watch-me-rise-768x990.jpg 768w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/Watch-me-rise.jpg 1114w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><br \/>\nMy\u00a0journey has at times been rather\u00a0a ponderous hesitant walk.<br \/>\nI\u2019ve staggered under burdens<br \/>\nof\u00a0expectations<br \/>\nof abuse<br \/>\nof self imposed protective measures<br \/>\nof\u00a0responsibilities.<br \/>\nMany\u00a0parts of the road have been incredibly\u00a0rough going.<br \/>\nOften\u00a0times I&#8217;ve approached\u00a0corners with hopeful expectancy\u00a0only to be blind sided once again.<br \/>\nTreacherous valleys, difficult hills, swamps have sucked me in and nearly suffocated me.<br \/>\nMy path\u00a0this year led\u00a0me over the blackest\u00a0coldest mountain range&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I fought my way up\u00a0those high peaks<br \/>\nI collapsed\u00a0at the top\u00a0panting with exhaustion<br \/>\nCompletely spent<br \/>\nI could go no further<br \/>\nI was finally stopped<br \/>\nI let myself bleed<br \/>\nLet myself feel<br \/>\nI<br \/>\nLet<br \/>\nIt<br \/>\nGo<br \/>\n<img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-622\" src=\"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/14610869_693850667431187_1890338017217096326_n-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/14610869_693850667431187_1890338017217096326_n-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/14610869_693850667431187_1890338017217096326_n-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/14610869_693850667431187_1890338017217096326_n-768x765.jpg 768w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/14610869_693850667431187_1890338017217096326_n.jpg 876w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 85vw, 300px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I conquered the pain<br \/>\nI conquered the fears<br \/>\nI conquered the blackness<\/p>\n<p>No longer will I run away from my dragons<br \/>\nI will fear them no more<br \/>\nI am embracing my dragons<br \/>\nThey now work for me,<br \/>\nwith me,<br \/>\nare part of me,<br \/>\nbut no longer control me<br \/>\nThe roles are reversed<br \/>\nAnd it feels<br \/>\nSO<br \/>\nDamn<br \/>\nGood<br \/>\n<img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-621\" src=\"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/15267828_713991388750448_4772678847489013130_n-300x227.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"227\" srcset=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/15267828_713991388750448_4772678847489013130_n-300x227.jpg 300w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/15267828_713991388750448_4772678847489013130_n-768x582.jpg 768w, https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/12\/15267828_713991388750448_4772678847489013130_n.jpg 960w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 85vw, 300px\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My\u00a0journey has at times been rather\u00a0a ponderous hesitant walk. I\u2019ve staggered under burdens of\u00a0expectations of abuse of self imposed protective measures of\u00a0responsibilities. Many\u00a0parts of the road have been incredibly\u00a0rough going. Often\u00a0times I&#8217;ve approached\u00a0corners with hopeful expectancy\u00a0only to be blind sided once again. Treacherous valleys, difficult hills, swamps have sucked me in and nearly suffocated me. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=618\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Watch my rising&#8230;.&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[11,20,47,4,21,58,17,49,60,1,18],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/618"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=618"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/618\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":627,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/618\/revisions\/627"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=618"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=618"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=618"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}