{"id":812,"date":"2017-04-17T01:35:58","date_gmt":"2017-04-17T01:35:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=812"},"modified":"2017-04-17T01:35:58","modified_gmt":"2017-04-17T01:35:58","slug":"freedom-is-being-you-without-anyones-permission","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/?p=812","title":{"rendered":"Freedom – is being You without anyone\u2019s permission"},"content":{"rendered":"

Here’s\u00a0the thing!
\n\"\"
\nDamn right it\u2019s not selfish to take care of yourself!
\nSo why do we constantly put ourselves\u00a0last.
\nEspecially we as women as wives and mothers
\nWe are\u00a0so used to having demands made of us
\nIt’s pretty much 24\/7
\nWe get into the rut of being last in the equation
\nI know I certainly did
\nFor years and years
\nWhy do we have to get to breaking point
\nOr actually break
\nBefore we Stop!
\nAnd evaluate and realise
\nThat we are a priority
\nWe have to be\u00a0No 1
\nWe shouldn\u2019t be just surviving
\nWe should be living!<\/p>\n

We also get ground down by the expectations of perfection
\nShoved in our faces by the media
\nBut also our own minds play games with us
\nwe second guess ourselves
\nwe accept our feelings of inadequacy
\nwe\u00a0sell ourselves short
\nThroughout my life I have had misconceptions about myself
\nthat have affected me in so many ways
\n-how ugly certain parts of my body were
\n-how I related to others
\n-how I resultantly would dress
\n-how I perceived myself
\n-how I treated myself
\n-how I spoke to<\/strong> myself
\n-how I spoke about<\/strong> myself
\nI know without a doubt I am not alone in this<\/p>\n

It breaks my heart when I see & hear people\u00a0being so self critical
\nespecially the precious young ones
\nwho have so many years ahead
\nwhich they should be enjoying in the freedom and knowledge
\nthat they are so worthy
\nand perfect
\nin who they are
\nas themselves<\/p>\n

I love Mahalia\u2019s sign on her mirror
\nIt is sadly too true
\nWARNING:<\/em>
\nReflections in this mirror may be distorted by socially constructed ideas of \u2018beauty\u2019.<\/em>
\n\"\"<\/p>\n

A year ago\u00a0I was told that I was pre-diabetic
\nI was stressed to the max
\nStill shouldering a huge burden of grief
\nI was unfit
\nI was carrying an excess amount of weight
\nall of which was causing my health to deteriorate
\nI\u00a0had not found my freedom to be Me<\/p>\n

It has taken a while
\nBut
\nwith support and encouragement from Sunniva & Cally in particular
\nand of course my long suffering therapist \ud83d\ude09
\nI have managed to lessen my stress levels to a manageable level
\nI started exercising
\nI lost weight
\nI began using Isagenix<\/a> products to assist my health journey
\nI have done heaps of self evaluation
\nTrading lack of self worth for worthiness
\nI talk to myself more positively
\nI am more confident in myself
\nI\u00a0treat myself better physically & emotionally
\nI cut myself so much more slack<\/p>\n

Physically I am feeling
\nAbsolutely
\nBloody
\nMarvellous
\nI do not need anyones permission
\nI own my own Freedom<\/p>\n

And today I have just discovered that my BMI has dropped from the \u2018heading towards danger’ area at\u00a028
\ndown to the more healthier level of 24
\nYaaaaah!!!!
\nI\u00a0have minimised\u00a0the risk of diabetes by a huge amount
\nYes, the 12 kgs+ that I have lost helps considerably<\/p>\n

More than that though
\nMy emotional and mental Me has developed and begun to shine
\nMy\u00a0inner person has grown
\nI have learnt to accept who I am as a woman
\nas a human being
\nas an equal
\nIf any of my preconceived\u00a0flaws pop into my brain
\nI just stomp on them
\napply the order of the boot
\nand kick\u00a0them out of my life
\nI have no need of them!<\/p>\n

\"\"\"\"
\nIt is a difficult thing to really really look at yourself in the mirror
\nand not to criticise yourself
\nTo actually see You
\nMarvellous
\nAstonishing
\nWonderful
\nYou \ud83d\ude42
\nTake a moment or three
\nStop and look
\nYou are fricken awesome and don\u2019t let anyone tell you otherwise
\nIncluding that small voice from within
\nSilence it immediately!!
\nLook at who you really are
\nwonderful you
\namazing you
\nuniquely you
\nWho cares if your eyebrows are not on fleck
\nor your nose is slightly off centre
\nor your hair is \u2018not right\u2019
\nor you are a cuddlier model
\nor you are a slimmer machine
\nor your boobs are too big
\nor too small
\nor your post baby tummy is lovely and squishy
\nor……
\nor…………..
\nIt doesn\u2019t actually matter
\nThere are seriously no fucks given by anyone except yourself!!<\/p>\n

\"\"
\nYes
\nLike\u00a0each of us
\nI have a story
\nSome of that story is fucking awful
\nBut there\u2019s also a hell of a lot that is brilliant
\nThrough learning to love myself
\nI am choosing to be brave and own my own story
\nAnd by owning it
\nI can now write the the next chapters
\nAnd they are going to be\u00a0AWESOME!
\n\"\"<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Here’s\u00a0the thing! Damn right it\u2019s not selfish to take care of yourself! So why do we constantly put ourselves\u00a0last. Especially we as women as wives and mothers We are\u00a0so used to having demands made of us It’s pretty much 24\/7 We get into the rut of being last in the equation I know I certainly … Continue reading “Freedom – is being You without anyone\u2019s permission”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[40,53,47,37,4,62,21,54,28,17,49,60,48,51,61,18],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/812"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=812"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/812\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":819,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/812\/revisions\/819"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=812"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=812"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mybigballofstring.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=812"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}