I try to process
unravel my thoughts
but they’re all mixed up
like a cacophony of sound
making no sense
Confusion overtakes my brain
I forget
I muddle
I can’t think
I can’t speak
I can’t face anyone
I want to hide
Emotions begin running amok
tears pour
unable to be repressed
fall unbidden
at the smallest trigger
My body
is exhausted
it shakes
curls up
hides
needs comfort
craves touch
yet pushes everyone away
My soul
hurts so much
needs quiet
needs understanding
is so tired
Be patient please
I just need time
ptsd is such an exhausting mindfuck